14w4d - Thought I had turned a corner

But I guess I didn’t. I feel like I’m going to hurl right now. It’s no good! I did eat breakfast. I ate a balanced, healthy breakfast at that. I had one egg (the cage free, vegetarian hen, enhanced omega 3 kind), one piece of 100% whole wheat toast, a big glass of organic skim milk and a few wedges of navel orange. I should feel like a rock star after that breakfast! Instead, I feel like I want to curl up into a ball and close my eyes until the queasies go away. I’m also a bit light headed. No good.

Last week’s ultrasound was awesome. Until then, I didn’t really feel pregnant. Sure, I was tired, nauseous, cranky, etc. And I put on a few pounds and my boobs are tender and huge. But I didn’t completely believe that there was a tiny person living inside of me. I mean, let’s face it, I have been sick all the time for the past 2.5 years and I gain weight when I look at food funny (the weight gain actually seemed to slow down, who would suspect pregnancy with that?!). Now I heard its little heart beating, and saw it moving around, and wiping its little face, and playing with its little feet… it’s there, it’s alive and it’s inside of me RIGHT NOW. It’s doing all of these things right now that I can’t even feel.

On that note, I cannot wait until I can feel all of the movements. I am eager for little (and big) kicks. I can’t wait to feel it moving around when I talk to it and read it stories and even just rub my belly. I’ll just need to be extra careful with my sugar and caffeine intake late at night, don’t want to give the little bugger a jolt of energy right before bed!